Food is my addiction

 On Saturday September 18, 2021, I did my first official triathlon.  I was so nervous and scared. Some of my fears happened and some of my strength came through.  Let me take you back to 10 years ago or so.  When I was working in Boy Scouts.  Every year in April, young men from all over the state would come to our small community and do a triathlon.  I never dreamed I would want to do one.  Then one year as I saw people getting ready for the triathlon, I thought maybe one day I will do that.  One day when I lose my weight.  I didn't think much about it through the years until, 2 years ago when one of my good friends told me she was going to do a triathlon.  I thought wow, good for her, maybe one day I will do that too.  I was losing weight and knew that if I set a goal for the next year, I would keep the commitment I made to my self and I would do it!  So that day I told my friend, Hey I'm going to do this with you next year....

 As I contemplated this day that happened 20 years ago, I decided I wanted to share with you my thoughts that I wrote in my journal almost 20 years ago.  I had 3 children at the time, one being a 3 month old. This is what I wrote in 2002 about that event.  I can't believe how fast time flies.  On Sept. 11, 2001 one of the most terrible things that I have witnessed happened.  Some terrists hi-jacked a few planes. Two planes crashed into the Twin Towers, the World Trade centers in New York , one crashed into the Pentagon in Washington DC and one crashed into a field. They said this plane was possibly going to the White House or some other place but the passengers, when they heard about the other crashes decided to take over the plane, so it went down in a field.   This day started out as usual in my house.  I was babysitting at the time and all the children I was watching were playing in my backyard having a good time.  My Husband called me aro...

In thinking about what I wanted to talk about this week, I decided I want to talk about Empathy and taking responsibility for what you are doing. The other day at school I had a student come into my classroom all upset.  She said her teacher was mad at her, I asked her what she did.  She said so and so made me write a note and that the teacher was mad at her for what she was made to write.  I said wait just a minute and tell me what you did without saying someone made me do it.  She looked at me like I was crazy.  I said what did YOU do in this situation?  She said So and so, I said so and so can't make you do anything, you chose to write the note.  She looked at me again and tried to figure out what I wanted her to say to make it look like the other person is at fault.  In the end I explained to her that no body can make us do anything we don't want to do.  Even if it feels like they are making us do something, we still have the choice to ma...

  “Motherhood is a choice you make every day to put someone else’s happiness and well-being ahead of your own, to teach the hard lessons, to do the right thing even when you’re not sure what the right thing is, … and to forgive yourself over and over again for doing everything wrong.” —Donna Ball The one thing I wanted most in this life was to be a mom and have children.  My children are my life.  I love them so much!  I was so lucky to stay home with them for 14 years.  I babysat to help out our income but I was so lucky to be home with them.  I firmly believe that there is no greater calling in this life than to be a mother.  As a mother your whole life is centered around your children.  Everything you do is for your children.  You give up so much time and energy (even clothes or food or other things ) for your children.  They are your world.  As they grow up they get a little bit of independence and try to break away from you....