Food is my addiction

We are 4 months into 2020 and I've learned a lot about myself and weight loss.  To be honest Weight loss is at a stand still and I'm ok with that for now.  I've learned that it is harder to forgive those who hurt your loved ones than it is to forgive someone that hurt you.  When Heavenly Father said you will find Joy in your posterity, that is so true.  There is nothing that makes me happier than my cute Grandson.  Even when he is upset, he touches my heart and puts a smile on my face. I just love him! July 24, 2020 Covid 19 put me into a rut or I guess I should say I put myself into a rut because of what I thought about Covid 19 and what it is doing to our world.  Christy told me about a talk and in this talk the guy said that in a catastrophe there are 3 types of people.  The first 10% of the people are go getters and they figure out a way to solve the catastrophe. 80% of the people are stunned and don't know what to do they need someone to tell them...

I finally broke the 6 lb bounce that I have been stuck in.  I have lost then, gained lost then gained the same 6 lbs for the last 2 months.  Why did I not just throw the towel in and give up?  I will tell you there were moments that I thought about it.  But some of the things I have learned were that when you think you have failed, it is not really failure but learning moments.  What did I learn in the last 2 months?  I have learned that to give up on yourself is not the best policy.  Being kind to yourself and letting yourself heal is really the best way to get through anything.  Learning to forgive yourself when you mess up is one way to be kind to yourself.  It's ok to take a step back and rethink your plan.  My plan is to always have a plan.  I decide what to eat every Sunday for the week.  That way I don't have to think about what I want to eat tomorrow or the next day.  I do want to talk about kindness a little more....

Once someone told me that insanity is the ability to do the same thing everyday and expect different results. One of the definitions of insanity  is subject to uncontrollable impulsive behavior.  As I sit down to write this new blog I am reminded that everything I put into my body counts.  I cannot keep eating the same things over and over and expect a different result.  So my dilemma, I like potatoes, I like nuts, those have become my filler foods.  Those foods are not against my protocol, I plan those foods.  They are not flour and they are not sugar so they are OK to eat.  The problem is they do not help me reach my goal.  The past year as I have learned to listen to my body and try to decide what is best for my health and what is not best for my health, I've learned that potatoes and nuts are just filler foods for me.  I like them and they help me feel full.  My goal is not to fill full.  My goal is to eat to live not live to ea...

We set goals, we mess up our goal, we reset our goals and it goes on and on and on.  Life is hard.  Things happen in our life to derail us from our goals.  One thing I have learned is I am responsible for everything I do.  If I am derailed it is only because I chose to be derailed.  We can never know what people are truly thinking.  We can not ever know what is really going on in their life.  9 times out of 10 people are not thinking about you the way you think they are.  It is all from our perception.  It is all from what we are thinking about ourselves or our life.  Most of the time those people are worried about what you are thinking.  Hahaha . Life is hard if that is what we make it.  How do we find joy in the journey when everything seems to be crashing around us.? You know the best thing to do is go cry it out and then look at what you are thinking about the situation.  Write it down, all of it.  Every little th...

This past week with the New Year and trying to get back on track with everything after the holidays has been a true struggle.  So, this year I am going to try a little harder to be a little better at writing in this blog.  My goal is to write once a week.  In the past I would not want to write if I was struggling with anything in my life.  I think this year I am going to get real with you and I am going to talk about my struggles when they happen instead of waiting until I feel better about it.  In this weight loss journey I have had many struggles but I have also had many successes.  Sometimes Christy or Chantel have been the ones to point out those successes to me when I am struggling.  I think that is the main reason a life coach is important to have.   You need them for accountability but you also need someone that is not in the mix or what is hard for you to tell you "hey you are doing a good job",        Now for my ...

I'm not going to lie it has been a challenge.  Weight-loss is slow and brutal, but really the holidays is not the only issue I've had these past couple of months.  Stress level is high and a lot of personal growth has come my way.  That is how I look at trials now.  Trials= personal growth.         On a plus note I lost 1 pound over Thanksgiving.  So I look at that as a huge plus.  The stress that has been going on in my life is really throwing my body into survival mode.  I don't feed my stress now and my body just does not know what to do.  It is hanging on for dear life and I am not getting discouraged.  I am a little sad that I did not reach my 100 lbs yet but I'm not giving up.  I'm down 86 lbs and that is nothing to be sad about.  I am very happy with the things I am learning about myself and my life with food.  I've had some people ask me if I had surgery and I am happy to say NO,  I'm doing thi...