Food is my addiction

     I want to get a little personal with you right now as I talk about feelings.  One of the hardest things I have learned on this journey is how to feel my feelings.  I've talked a little bit about it  in my past blogs but right now I'm going to go a little deeper.      For years I've tried to hide my feelings..... I remember when I was a kid little things would make me cry and I would try so hard to hold those feelings back, thinking I was weak and did not have a reason to cry---- I  look back now and know that those feelings were because of embarrassment or I was humiliated or just plain sad.  I wish I could say I had patience when my own kids inherited that same quality,  I did not but I had a little more patience than my husband did.  haha Did you know that feelings should  be felt and not hid.  Think about it.  Our husband does something that upsets us but instead of telling him or better yet letti...

What if  you could control your thoughts and feelings by learning how to deal with your circumstances? This week I want to talk about Circumstances-  What are they? "Circumstances are Everything outside of us, they are Neutral, Facts, Really Boring, Everyone would agree about them." I debated on talking about death as a circumstance because it is such a hard thing to go through.  I decided to go ahead and talk about it because I want you to know what I have learned about one of  the hardest experience I've gone through. Death is a very strong circumstance that hits everyone in a different way.  When my baby was 10 months old My father passed away.....  let me take you back to that time 14 years ago this  April.  After my baby was born I knew this would most likely be my last child.  I had very mixed emotion about that, anyways, At 2 months old I had the doctors diagnose him with Asthma and told them to send me to the Asthma specialis...

Anyone that knows me even a little knows or should know I have not liked chocolate for 15 years.  People ask me how can you not like chocolate?  I just don't like it anymore.  There was a day I (needed) wanted chocolate everyday of my life. When I was pregnant with my last child I got so sick off of an Almond Joy no less--- My kids tease my youngest telling him " you ruined chocolate for mom" I tell him "it was the best thing that happened to me."  I tell others I may not eat chocolate but I sure have made up for it in other ways, while I point to the wonderful body I have. HaHa   My son says it really was the coconut that made me sick ( he hates coconut). Anyways what ever it is that you crave, white chocolate, caramel, Ice Cream, donuts, cake, ice cream( yes I know I said this twice) ( these are my go to treats by the way)  or Chocolate.  Whatever you say you love to eat, whatever it is..... why, why, why do we always turn to food?  Why wh...