Food is my addiction

 One day this summer I was swimming in the pool.  Swimming  is not my favorite form of exercise but I decided to do a triathlon and swimming is part of that so I practice swimming twice a week to get better.  On this particular day I was trying to reach a goal of swimming 1 lap free style.  I do not like swimming free style.  There is something in my head about having my face in the water.  Maybe it is from almost drowning in the river when I was younger, I'm really not sure why but I hate to put my face in the water.  That is why I swim on my back.  The beginning of the summer I wanted to be able to swim some laps free style  when I do the triathlon.  So on this particular day I was trying to fight the battle in my head about swimming with my face in the water.  I finally decided to just try and swim the lap, after all it was only one lap and that was easy.  Besides if things got hard I could always flip over on my back. ...

 In the past few months Self- doubt has crept into my life.  I've always been one to talk myself out of doubting myself and my abilities.  Starting a Blog or a Pod-Cast does not help with self doubt.  Self-doubt is all in our head.  We can never know what other people think about us.  We can never know how other people really feel about us, because either one they don't tell you how they feel or two they are so wrapped up in their own life they don't have time for what you are doing.  I've learned that usually 9 times out of 10 people are thinking mostly about what is going on in their life and not worrying about you.     When I first started teaching school back in 2011, I struggled, I had such a hard time finding my place as a teacher.  After two years of teaching, I did not feel like I was a very good teacher and I felt like teaching was not what I wanted to do my whole life.  I got on my knees and prayed for some help and guidan...

I am sitting on a beach looking out across the ocean.  The sun is glistening across the sky as it so softly kisses the edge of the ocean.  I look out and see a ship in the far off distance. Wondering if this is the ship that will come to bring me money, weight loss, peace, happiness, or everything my heart desires.  Is this the ship that will be mine and only mine. Is this the ship that will bring me the joy my heart so deeply longs for.   This is the picture I would see in my mind every time my father would say “When my ship comes in”.  When my ship comes in- refers to a scenario that my father used to share with me.  When I was growing up and we would want something or do something my father would always say “we will do that or get that when my ship comes in”. My parents were never rich with money.  We always had what we needed to get by, we always had whatever we needed.   Not necessarily what we wanted but we never went without the things we n...

      In June  my family took a trip to Hawaii.  On one of our drives we were following behind my son. He took us down this road that had a most beautiful view.  He soon called us to say that he took us down the wrong road and we would need to turn around. We were ok with that because we saw a part of Hawaii we would not have seen had we not gone on that little detour.       A few days ago I was riding on my bike around the small community I live in.  It was a road I always travel on so to me it was no big deal going down the same road I always go along.  On this particular morning I looked ahead like I always do and all of a sudden there was a dog on the path I usually go down.  If you know dogs and bikes, well they don't usually get a long so well.  So I decided to take a little detour down another road that I have never been down before.  As I was going down the new road, the thought came to me that I don...