Food is my addiction

Here I am with my honesty in tacked.  "Because ye are compelled to be humble blessed are ye; for a man sometimes, if he is compelled to be humble, seeketh repentance; and now surely, whosoever repenteth shall find mercy; and he that findeth mercy and endureth to the end the same shall be saved" (Alma 32:13) The next step in the addiction recovery is HOPE. As I study this program I realize that my addiction to food is nothing compared to other people.  And yet I still have an addiction.  I find that when I eat, most of the time it is food I am addicted to.  I am finding that I need to find that hope that a lot of people find when they are faced with an addiction.  "Most of us felt stripped of any hope"  that line makes me so sad but yet some times when I am eating the things I know will make me feel yucky; that is what goes through my mind. "Forget it I just want to eat what I want to eat" "I can't give it up"  "I just want that bowl...

The last 3 weeks were full of lots of stress and major things going on in my life.  As I look back over them I'm not sure why I felt so stressed.  I did have a lot of things going on.  I had a lot of concerns with my children but not to major.  Work was a stress but it is a lot of the time, I am a teacher.  I've thought a lot about when and why did I become a stress eater...... Flash back 11 years ago.  I had just given birth to my 4th living child.  When he was 1 month old he developed the same thing my other two boys had Asthma.  Usually with Asthma you have to show a pattern of him being sick for 1 year before he would be diagnosed with Asthma.  He was to young and to small to mess around with this sickness.  It freaked me out.  We had not even started the fall months and he was super sick.  They put him on a steroid and I was not going to play the game of figuring out if he had Asthma or not.  I insisted the doctors ...