UGH.....I Just Want Chocolate
Anyone that knows me even a little knows or should know I have not liked chocolate for 15 years. People ask me how can you not like chocolate? I just don't like it anymore. There was a day I (needed) wanted chocolate everyday of my life.
When I was pregnant with my last child I got so sick off of an Almond Joy no less--- My kids tease my youngest telling him " you ruined chocolate for mom" I tell him "it was the best thing that happened to me." I tell others I may not eat chocolate but I sure have made up for it in other ways, while I point to the wonderful body I have. HaHa My son says it really was the coconut that made me sick ( he hates coconut). Anyways what ever it is that you crave, white chocolate, caramel, Ice Cream, donuts, cake, ice cream( yes I know I said this twice) ( these are my go to treats by the way) or Chocolate. Whatever you say you love to eat, whatever it is..... why, why, why do we always turn to food? Why when ever I am happy, sad, angry, content, (you choose a feeling) why do I always turn to food?
This past summer we had one of our dogs die. Our other dog was so sad he would sit in the back yard and moan and howl----guess what I did for him.........I took him a treat, yep I filled his pain with food. So why? that is the big question I'm sure everyone asks why do we always turn to food when we have any kind of feeling?
I want you to think about that for a bit...........
We feed our emotions
Did you know that thoughts create feelings,
feelings drive the action
actions create the result
This is what I am learning day by day.
When first hear this I thought hum really it makes sense but how do I change my thoughts. What I was asked was "What was your thought when you ate something you know you should not eat."
I said I thought I really don't care I just want to eat this.
So my thought was I don't care,
my feelings were bored,
my action was to eat what I wanted.
My results would never change. The scale would creep up and I would feel like garbage.
I found out I really just wanted to eat what I wanted and not think of the consequences. This kind of thinking would not take me where I wanted to go. Nothing in my life would change. I would still be heavy, I would still feel awful, and I would slowly be killing my body.
I then created my mantra it is all over the place at home and school
Love life not food!
I started telling myself to Be excited: I can do anything I want. I want to eat healthy things. I always make a plan, sometimes those plans change but one plan that never changes is no flour, no sugar and no snacks. I try to always be conscious about what I am putting in my mouth.
So Keep food boring and life exciting. This is my 4th week with no flour and no sugar. Here are the changes I see in me
Head is clearer most of the time
I can stay awake longer
sleep is better
body does not hurt as much as it used to
weight loss is snow and steady.
Do I still have cravings? Yes Do I still want things I know will make me feel yucky? Yes
So this is what has changed
My thoughts
When a craving comes up
I think, Do I want this or do I want to keep the commitment to myself.
My feelings content
My action is to not eat what ever I want when I want
My result is all those things that I said before
Head is clearer most of the time
I can stay awake longer
sleep is better
body does not hurt as much as it used to
weight loss is snow and steady.
Something I've learned is how to process my emotions. Its ok to feel any feeling I have. I've spent so many years hiding my emotions except a happy emotion. Happy emotions are always so easy to show to everyone. The negative emotions are what we try to hide because they really are not fun emotions. So we try to cover them up. Find a place to allow you to feel that emotion until it subsides. Relax into it! Name it (1 word) Find it in your body and feel it. Picture it! What does anger look like?
Could you imagine feeling that emotion instead of feeding it with whatever food you choose to try and hide it with? Guess what if you try to hide it, it will still be there. It will come up to fester when you have a similar situation show up again. Does this mean I never struggle with emotional eating , on the contrary I experience a lot of emotions during the week and I have thoughts like ugh I just want a candy bar. After that thought happens I stop and think do I really want a candy bar or what is the feeling I am feeling. I am a school teacher and most of the time I feel frustrated with my students, with the state department, or maybe other people in my life. My action is to just feel that feeling and tell my self you don't need a candy bar, you need to feel your feelings. I made a commitment to myself. I don't really want a candy bar, I just want to feel my feelings and move on.
I know I can do anything I set my mind to!
When I was pregnant with my last child I got so sick off of an Almond Joy no less--- My kids tease my youngest telling him " you ruined chocolate for mom" I tell him "it was the best thing that happened to me." I tell others I may not eat chocolate but I sure have made up for it in other ways, while I point to the wonderful body I have. HaHa My son says it really was the coconut that made me sick ( he hates coconut). Anyways what ever it is that you crave, white chocolate, caramel, Ice Cream, donuts, cake, ice cream( yes I know I said this twice) ( these are my go to treats by the way) or Chocolate. Whatever you say you love to eat, whatever it is..... why, why, why do we always turn to food? Why when ever I am happy, sad, angry, content, (you choose a feeling) why do I always turn to food?
This past summer we had one of our dogs die. Our other dog was so sad he would sit in the back yard and moan and howl----guess what I did for him.........I took him a treat, yep I filled his pain with food. So why? that is the big question I'm sure everyone asks why do we always turn to food when we have any kind of feeling?
I want you to think about that for a bit...........
We feed our emotions
Did you know that thoughts create feelings,
feelings drive the action
actions create the result
This is what I am learning day by day.
When first hear this I thought hum really it makes sense but how do I change my thoughts. What I was asked was "What was your thought when you ate something you know you should not eat."
I said I thought I really don't care I just want to eat this.
So my thought was I don't care,
my feelings were bored,
my action was to eat what I wanted.
My results would never change. The scale would creep up and I would feel like garbage.
I found out I really just wanted to eat what I wanted and not think of the consequences. This kind of thinking would not take me where I wanted to go. Nothing in my life would change. I would still be heavy, I would still feel awful, and I would slowly be killing my body.
I then created my mantra it is all over the place at home and school
Love life not food!
I started telling myself to Be excited: I can do anything I want. I want to eat healthy things. I always make a plan, sometimes those plans change but one plan that never changes is no flour, no sugar and no snacks. I try to always be conscious about what I am putting in my mouth.
So Keep food boring and life exciting. This is my 4th week with no flour and no sugar. Here are the changes I see in me
Head is clearer most of the time
I can stay awake longer
sleep is better
body does not hurt as much as it used to
weight loss is snow and steady.
Do I still have cravings? Yes Do I still want things I know will make me feel yucky? Yes
So this is what has changed
My thoughts
When a craving comes up
I think, Do I want this or do I want to keep the commitment to myself.
My feelings content
My action is to not eat what ever I want when I want
My result is all those things that I said before
Head is clearer most of the time
I can stay awake longer
sleep is better
body does not hurt as much as it used to
weight loss is snow and steady.
Something I've learned is how to process my emotions. Its ok to feel any feeling I have. I've spent so many years hiding my emotions except a happy emotion. Happy emotions are always so easy to show to everyone. The negative emotions are what we try to hide because they really are not fun emotions. So we try to cover them up. Find a place to allow you to feel that emotion until it subsides. Relax into it! Name it (1 word) Find it in your body and feel it. Picture it! What does anger look like?
Could you imagine feeling that emotion instead of feeding it with whatever food you choose to try and hide it with? Guess what if you try to hide it, it will still be there. It will come up to fester when you have a similar situation show up again. Does this mean I never struggle with emotional eating , on the contrary I experience a lot of emotions during the week and I have thoughts like ugh I just want a candy bar. After that thought happens I stop and think do I really want a candy bar or what is the feeling I am feeling. I am a school teacher and most of the time I feel frustrated with my students, with the state department, or maybe other people in my life. My action is to just feel that feeling and tell my self you don't need a candy bar, you need to feel your feelings. I made a commitment to myself. I don't really want a candy bar, I just want to feel my feelings and move on.
I know I can do anything I set my mind to!
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