IT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS!

Before I dive into this weeks blog I would like to share some great news with you. I am a grandma and this has made me very happy.  I can't even express how happy I am at the thought of seeing my first grand child!  It truly is the best thing ever.  Another  happy note is I've lost 20 lbs in 10 weeks and feeling great!  I workout 5 or 6 times a week by doing Pilates from the Balanced live with Robin, I walk over 10000 steps a day. And I try to fit in 15 min of walking that is not because I have to.  I love listening to pod casts by Brooke Castillo, and Chantel Allen.  Seriously look them up they have changed my life.  I love Coaching with Christy Lee.  That is a highlight of my week. Being a healthy eater is a priority  to me now and I love it!

Now for my topic IT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS..........I've been thinking a lot about how I perceive how others look at me.  This really has been a struggle for my whole life and this past couple of weeks it has been on my mind a lot.  The human brain is amazing and it knows how to protect you until you are ready to handle what happens to you or has happened to you.  So this last week I realized that it was time to deal with something that has been on my mind for a very long time.  It was time to feel the feeling paranoia and recognize it for what it is and feel it where it really is in my body.  I get paranoid after I do something, worrying about what another person might think about the situation. My chest neck and shoulders get tight and I feel sometimes like I can't breathe.  Yep you guessed it now I put myself into a panic attack or I get myself sick fwith worry.  All this goes on because I am thinking about what someone else thinks of me.  haha  I'm crazy.  I can't know what anyone else thinks of me.  I can only know what I think.  IT IS NONE OF MY BUSINESS WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS OF ME!   95% of the time they are probably not even thinking what I think they are thinking.  All I do know is what I am thinking of a situation.  This week Christy said to me can you think of 3 people that will love you unconditionally when you do any particular thing.  The answer is yes.  I know without a shadow of a doubt that my husband will love me no matter what I do.  I know my kids will love me.  This does not mean that they will not get upset with me or have other feelings towards me,  it just means that I know they will love me for who I am no matter what.
 There are people out there that will think unkind things about me and really that is none of my business.  I'm not perfect, no one is.  We are all here on this earth to strive to be perfect.  But guess what we will not be perfect in this life.  All we can do is try and be the best we can be.  I can't let what others think about me keep me from trying to be the best I can be.  It does not matter what they think at all.  All that matters is what I think.  Now what if someone tells you what they think about you......that is their opinion.  Even if they tell you, you are the best at everything.  It is their opinion.  You might look at them and say HA you don't know me at all.  But what if you said thank you and just went about your day as usual.  What if you didn't list in your head  everything you are not good at to prove them wrong.  What if you just said thank you and looked at all the things you did do right?
We need to remember and this includes me.....I am a child of GOD.  Michelle D. Craig said " Have you ever felt your talents and gifts were too small for the task ahead? I have. But you and I can give what we have to Christ, and He will multiply our efforts. What you have to offer is more than enough—even with your human frailties and weaknesses—if you rely on the grace of God.
The truth is that each of us is one generation away from Deity—each is a child of God.18 And just as He has done with both prophets and ordinary men and women through the ages, so Heavenly Father intends to transform us."
We are children of GOD, It does not matter our race, our gender, or anything.  We are children of GOD and he does intend to transform us. He brings our imperfections to our mind so that we can become better, one more step to that perfection I was talking about.  He can take my paranoia, my jealousy, my depression, my anxiety, and all my imperfections and transform them into something I can't comprehend.  But I'm learning to comprehend it.  I'm learning to feel those feelings and recognize them for what they are.  I'm learning that if I just feel what I am feeling and not try to cover it up with something else, My feelings are not as bad as my mind makes them out to be.  








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  1. I hope you know I love you no matter what to my dear friend!-Tandy

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  2. You are amazing and you are doing wonderful things, even if it did matter what others thought you would be correct in knowing it’s not what think it may be. They are only thinking the positives about you. Continue forward, you are amazing!

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